Happy 2015, readers!

I’ve been having a most wonderful holiday. Ignoring work-related emails. Sleeping in. Watching movies.

Been running the bungalow as a flop house & bed and breakfast for all our visiting friends. We’ve been drinking mulled wine and warm our toes by the outdoor fire.

Dexter and Alice became ill! Luckily, it wasn’t serious and only lasted a few days, but there was vomit and nose bleeds and fevers. Sleepovers were cancelled. Much bedding was laundered.

We had a perfect little dinner party to ring in the new year. By perfect, I mean it was small, home cooked, and incredibly relaxed. We drank a bunch of wine and listened to our west coast friend talk about her experience in a sensory deprivation tank. Apparently it’s amazing! Everyone in attendance also identified, in their own way, that we all need to elevate self-care on our list of priorities. From lack of sleep to not exercising or eating particularly well. We all had something where we’re not taking care of ourselves.

So… I have a strange problem with new years resolutions. I find it really hard to make them! I’m a critical, analytical person all year round (blessing and a curse). When I identify that I want something to be different – I do it.

Right away.

In the effort to feel like I’ve “resolved” to do something from 2014, I’ve been focussing on some of the little short-term achievable goals I accomplished last year:

My sister and I formed mèi mei, the sister ukulele duo; Travelling carry-on only (success with 1 week in Glasgow and 1 week in NYC); Throwing a frisbee; And, learning how to stop properly on figure skates.

I’ve got lots of long term, super deep personality stuff that I’m constantly working on, but I wouldn’t put any of theses on a list of things I would consider 2015 year resolutions. That stuff is going to take more time.

For example, not being so critical and judgmental of myself and others: I often feel like I don’t fit in, alienate myself, and then feel angry about it later. I would eventually like to be one of those people you always feel warm and excited about, after meeting me. I want to always make a great first and last impression. I want people to think I am cool. I realize, I should just be myself and not worry about it. This stuff is all relative. I definitely don’t struggle with being authentic, so there’s no tension with pretending I’m something I’m not. The problem is I come on too strong. I’m direct. This is intimidating and confusing for people.

I am not patient. I need to learn not to react and get angry when people say things to me that don’t make sense. Some people don’t make sense. That doesn’t have to be my problem to fix. And, I should stop taking it personally.

So there. I’ve got plenty of little things I’ve wanted to cross off of my list of things to do. And, I’ve got hefty and lofty goals regarding my own basic programming. Some of these I will get done in the next 12 months. Some of these will likely take the balance of my lifetime. I don’t have any specific resolutions for 2015.

However, a short to-do list might look like this:

– Make really good blender margaritas
– Learn to drive standard (I KNOW)
– Swim more than 12 laps
– Write

All in all, I feel really lucky to have the life I do. My kids are wonderful and healthy. Both Don and I are doing work that is incredibly meaningful. My parents and siblings are so supportive of us, it makes working full time with kids possible. Ditto with having great child care providers and friends who help facilitate everything we do at home and out in the world.

I meet a lot of people who rub me the wrong way. I also get to meet people who are genuine, passionate, generous, creative, and fun! These are the people who give me energy and inspiration to get caught up in all the various things I end up taking on. They usually have big hearts and big brains.

So, more big hearts and big brains in 2015!